Chabura - 7 items to be mindful during listening

Groups of 3
7 things - important to be here, get off our chest
Taking stock of last week
10 pointers of having focus
Open for tonight
Bless for yourself this evening
my own sub agenda
My own work
Listening deeper
intentional
Helps to care for someone
Speak up
Pay attention to feelings
Share your feelings, don't wait to act
React to other reactions
Avoid advising
Don't band-aid
Care for intense moments
check in, keep a journal - Stay in the space

Mi'she'nichnas Adar - Purim - Tshuvah in Adar

Terumah - tachash

The cover of the ark was made from tachash skins. The tachash was the unicorn. It was created for this purpose. And ceased to exist afterwards.

Terumah - separate...

This is really quite beautiful...
Make sure a part of your life is separated and dedicated to Gd. Perhaps some of your money, perhaps time with your children, perhaps an item for your Shul (mikdash).
Make sure to really dedicate it, on it's own. Something special. Lift it up. If you lift it up you are also lifting everything else in your life up. Ultimately you are elevating Gd. Bringing the spiritual, Gd, into all aspects of your material world.
Listen to R'Shlomo here:

Tefillah - beginning of siddur - RDK

Bakashot
Learning in nigleh
First 3 brachot of Sh.E.
Yihud of kriyat shema
8 truths after ga'al israel
Context for beginning of Sh'Es and the beg. of everyday
Circadian rhythym significance
Deeper than sleeping
Waking up is associated with tkiat hametim
Meditation at the opening of the day
Consciousness and breathing
Order of brachot
Opening your eyes - elohai neshama
(no modeh ani in gemara)
Awakening in Tzfat
Modeh Ani was replaced by elohai neshama
M'Ani came out of E'Nesh'
We awaken to marvellous reality
Gd guarded our soul during sleep
Guarded our essential selfhood
External trappings was gone
Essence of who we are was preserved
Gd's devotion to us
Only due to sleep can we discover that
Only waking can we appreciate that
Everytime we breath as well
Letting go, and have faith
'Breath your soul into me'
Recall the intimate rhythym
Breathing is a creation of the 2nd story of Bereshis
There is no breathing in the beginning
Everything is created as ready to breathe
2nd story we find creation from dirt
Neshama is breathed into you
First accent and realisation of soul
2nd story - no breathing creatures until man (inc. vegetation)
Sneezing, say 'asuta' (heal) = gesundheit
Your soul should not leave you when you sneeze.
Primal awakening and awareness
Consciousness
Pure soul breathed into me
Reflected on a cosmic scale with tkchiat hametim
Guard our soul for reconnection with our bodies
Souls dearness to Gd
Body is the vessel through which the soul shines
Body will not alter the soul
Mishna - anyone who denies tkchiat hametim, is denied tk'met'
Responsiveness of Gd to the world he makes
Gd is paying attention to the details of the way we lead our lives
Respnsive to our nature and our choices
Parallel in tk'ham'
What matters to us, matters to him
A time when the world will be desolate
Souls will just be hovering above it
Then there will be tk'ham'
Then the souls will be breathed back into the world
2nd storey - b'hi'baram - created with a breath ('hey')
As opposed to bereshit bara
Now there is a 'hey' - the breathing world
'Shenatata bi' is bina
Rhythym is Gd's guardianship
Shenatata bi - the bi is the nefesh habehema speaking

"Elokai neshama shenatata bi tehora..."
The Gdly soul that you gave me ('bi' - behema nefesh - its 'me'at - meat!) is pure.

Nachoshet is actually bronze. Not copper. Copper with a bit of tin.
Ani is an outgrowth of modeh
If ani comes before modeh, then i come before giving thanks.
Bekirbi - expression of soul descent into me. Thus Modeh Ani.
If you don't bend at Modim then your soul will become a snake when you're buried.
It's fine to stand up tall, as long as you have bowed for modim and lifted up like a snake.
Alignment of awakening
This is parallel to first 2 brachot, ultimately realised in magen avraham
Language of first bracha is suggestive
Comes from ch.14 in bereshit
... Avraham comes back from war and malkitzedek approaches him and blesses him. (14:9)
Hashem now uses Malkitzedek's usage of magen avraham.
Magen avraham is the protection
Koneh shamaim v'aretz
The receiver of heaven & earth
Lost in atzilut - let go to me - i will guard you.
Ga'al israel - a meditation that Gd is holding us in his thought
Parallel between redemption and reality of the world

RDK - Chasidut - Yaakov

Yaakov
Gd being here
Not contemplative awareness
Tmimut - simplicity, smooth
He's here
Not thinking about
No mediation
The experience is Gd
No other quality but divine
Felt experience
Awareness of Divine
Profound endearment
Possessions are as dear as bodies
Value of materiality
Value of Gd's manifestation
Levavecha - life force touching divine
The passion
Using all your possessions in the love of Gd
This is Yaakov
Leads to relationship of seeing items in this world not just as 'instruments'
Get rid of the avodah zara
Yaakov never dies
Gd calls him Gd
You are alone
Selfhood is a manifestation of the all, the divine
Sees everything as Gd
Level of heart - re'uta delibo
Desire reflecting truth of what i am
Experience the passion & will as its own reality
Declaration of my identity
This is the access point
Don't seek outside yourself
Accept the wholeness
Separate from activities of achieving & doing
Don't live my life by accomplishments
Modality for sharing, expressing
Being alone is Tam - levado
Achieved a deep intimacy
Not an egotistical levado
The world is mine and the world is created for me - Esav
Everything is a gift for me - Yaakov
Waking up of Yaakov
From his sleep
Becomes a model
Gd continues to guard your identity during sleep
The remez for tchiat hametim (t'hm)
Gd declares that you are so dear to him
Gd will bring you back to embodiment
Realise that the you, you are living now is dear to Gd
Gd values your embodiment
You are the revelation in this reality
Pachim Tamim
We're Gds jars that Gd goes back for
Committed to the full and most perfect realisation
Yaakov is conscious of this
Yaakov does not desire self-aggrandisement
Yaakov sees the world ideally as a reflection of the divine
Re'uta deliba - root of the will
Reflects the nature of reality & identity
Not a reflection of lacking
e.g. Yaakov gives it all away
Bakol, mikol, kol
Bakol - Avraham (put into you all)
Mikol - Yitschak (leaving all)
Kol - Yaakov (i have all)
Gd is the divine vision
Yaakov understands he is a part of the Gdly vision
Directness of connectivity - Da'at
A deep will, a deep desire
A deep divine desire
Gd does not stand outside of desire
Knows his divine desire
Re'uta deliba - will of the heart
Realisation of the beit tefilati
Shema Koleinu from Amidah
Ratzon HaLev - emphasis of that which is not mine yet... (not the best, not Yaakovs desire)
Love is the desire to be drawn towards Gd. It's actually the opposite
Pachad is incapable to stand in the presence of Gd
Reuta Delibo is a wilfulness to connect and be fully bound to in truth
Not either virtue of fear alone or love alone
Bitul is not essential!
Dependent upon a desire to connect
Yira is not essential!
Reuta deliba does reflect the essential connection...
Recognition
Love & desire is a reflection of the truth of who i am. That is why is love & desire.
A deep part of me
That is the deepest knowing of Gd
Manifested in Israel.
Don't seek parts.
You are a part of all.
Netzzach - avraham, sustainability
Hod - Ytzk, glow of source you long for
Yesod - Yaakov, manifested level
Strength of attachment
Reuta delibo becomes reflected outwardly - that woman, pupil, teacher, object.
If you become deeply connected to that, that becomes memory relationships
Alzheimers gets triggered by old memory
Can't relate to the here & now
Began when he saw his son in tallis&tefillin at a bris - then began to lose it
An illness of losing hold of the essential identity
Yesod retracts inside
Yesod goes up to keter (primal reality)

In Kabbalah Yaakov is the middle
Goes all the way up to keter and ein sof
Not chochma and bina (on the side) - not part of boundessness of divine.
Thats the etz she'betoch hagan
Gan is the garden, the extension
No such place as toch hagan
Yaakov midot is emet
Yaakov is now going to delimit his consciousness as opposed to the other fathers.
Just like Moshe, who is the inside
Moshe is the inner reality of Yaakov
A feeling of contact between 2 entities
Yaakov uses the instruments of the sensations of contact
Yaakov only experiences the divine through the agencies of manifestation, e.g. his body
This is not the revelation,gilui of his essence
Yaakov is the body,gufa, external
Reality of external awareness
Yaakov is Avinu
Moshe is Rabeinu

Mishpatim

Chasidut - RDK

Path to Yaakov Avinu...
Yitschak wants to leave the kelim
He was mitbonnen in the shoresh of kelim
He asked a question
Yitschak was never answered
Y'k is always oriented moving upwards
Like a flame
Yearning for the source
Turning the eyes upwards
Mi Bara Eleh
You don't see stars or moon
A product of the Eleh
Existence is the product of reality
Eleh Toldot
Bereshit is Chochma
Toldot is Bina
Yechidcha is uniqueness
The unique individual
Individuation is experience of divestment
Mi Bara Eleh
Yearning for the Source
Will not bond with the source
Primal commitment to individuation
For question, not for answer
Contemplation built on externals
Chizonit
Moshe is Pnimiut
Looking from perspective of kelim
Realisation of activity
He is participant in the source of binah
Passionate & fiery activity
Binah is the supernal mother
One with the source
Primary identity is being related through the source
The relationship between his striving for the source
Knowing the source externally
Active knowing
Gd's expansiveness - Avraham
Narrow strait, capillary movement towards source - Yitschak
Midot Yaakov...
Binds left and right to middle
Unification, ever present
Always true, constant
Straightness
Element of foundation of building
A standard by which you measure
Ama is the constant
Quality not bound by circumstance
Ama is the truth, it has useability as a function
The measure of all things
This is the constant
Amat habinah
Ama is primal, foundational
Motherhood, Imahut (Ama)
In Yaakov's life, mother was the defining character
Reflection of motherhood
Opposite of fatherhood
Irony of Av relating to categorisation - yesh ein lemikra or lemasores
Which one is more primary
Emet and Ima are not abstracted
Not disconnected from life
They are contextualised
The truth we are privy to
Ketzavot, hitlabshut
Em is a principle which provides understanding and meaning
Mashmaut is from Binah, hearing things
'I get it'
Father is so abstracted and distant
Becomes a charicature
No relation between primal priciples and reality
Man requires exactitude
Aba and chochma is on the right side
Av has Hitlabshut leading to an imperfect realisation
Av unable to understand child's processes
Em understands principles and emunah
The hitlabshut and reality
The centre
Discovered through realisation
Midah is emet, a mother term
Tmimut is another primary midah
Simplicty, being with things just as they are
Chitzoni
Let go of the absolute mind
Becomes a feeling
Guided by sensory elements
Don't think or analyse the person
Innocence of non-taking
Non-attachment (not cold)
Not detached
Not grasping or desirous
Enables the exposure of emet in real time and real life
Yaakov does not die, 'lo met'
Eternal
Yitschak appreciates and is involved with kelim
Yaakov has an aspect of awareness
Tiferet is Da'at - awareness
The most constant truth
Extant everywhere in the same way
All over your body, each part is aware equally
Presence of awareness
Reality of being
Yaakov is the great doorway into understanding Gd's hashgacha
The awareness of all things
Myriad functions going on in your body miraculously
All an awareness throughout your body
Now imagine that for Gd
Gd is ever present in reality of the universe
Gd is the myriad of functionality of the universe
Gd is conscious in all things
Gd is ever present in all things
He is aware of nothing other than him
Gd is the knower, known & knowing
Gd's contact, reality is the awareness of creation
Gd defines all shapes and measures
Tam - it is what it is
It is all of this - the world
Awareness of the kelim
Yaakov knows the truth
Primal truth
Yaakov is amud (pillar) of chochmot
Emet is the primal existence of the matsui rishon
Awareness out of which all things emerge by our own awareness
It is solid because Gd is aware and thinking of it
Thoughts manage us
Divine awareness
Experience of beauty, is the consciousness to understand and be in harmony with Gd's awareness and consciousness of the universe
Yiraeh
Gd sees through the eyes of the ones that come to Har Hashem (gemara chagiga)
Awareness itself
Crucial of all elements
The presence
The quiet
No thinking and interpretaion
Hargasha
Wilfulness is present
If awareness is gone, it will cease to be
Yivgah bemakom
Intimacy
Deep compassion and acceptance
Phenomenon of compassion of circumstance of my life
Yaakov appreciates the consciousness of Gd
Everyone is part of this matrix
Baal HaTanya - Igeret Yud Aleph
Gd has no stray thoughts
He doesn't have anything to work out
Yaakov discovers Gd in the darkness
No matter what the circumstance
Reality is divine awareness
Attachment to the keter
Awareness should become sentient
Awareness of our body, feet, toes, heart
Sense of consonance
Desirousness for contact, to marry into the relationship
This is my home
This is me
Because we're all part of one
Expressed in reality by Yaakov with his wives
Yesod - resting on the foundation
Foundational
Connective
Gilui of the centre meridian which binds all things together
Yaakov is the line from top to bottom - Yud to Akev
Holds together both bechina of Avraham and Yitschak
Sees Gd's essence through kelim
Avraham saw Gd filling kelim
Yitschak saw the source of filling kelim
Yaakov sees the purpose of filling the kelim
Gd's thoughts
Da'at tiferet and Yesod
Hakara and Hagasha
Awareness and Experience (feeling & consciousness)
Feeling is equal throughout the body
Da'at is the essence of the life force, and is manifested
Becomes known. It is a Peleh. Mindfulness. Awareness.
Presence in matter.
Comes together as an equivolation.
Awareness comes from the keter.
Peleh comes from essence - where all things are the same
Letting go is the delineation of wonder - paradox.
Round inclusivess is the circle of keter.
Yaakov is aware of Gd being present in all the universe of time and space
Kocho and peleh
Centre line is the alignment of the flow from the essence
The man who sees the king in his chamber
The man who sees the king in his chamber from a distance
It's the same king
He contacted his essence
Loses respect because of hitpadshut
Equal everywhere because is makir to see the king in his heichal
Adon olam asher malach, beterem kol yetzir nivra, le'et nasa becheftzo kol, azai melech shemo nikra
Midah of emet
From emet, Gd is eternal and unchanging presence, in heaven and earth
The truth is that it is all his presence
Be with it as it is
Like Yaakov
He contacts and sees without cleverness
Just as is
Reflecting contacts with ein sof
Sits in both tents - Rachel and Leah

Modim

 

 

From: Rav Daniel Kohn [mailto:ravdanielk@gmail.com]
Sent: Friday, February 10, 2012 2:11 PM
To: Paul
Subject: Re: Modim

 

Dear Pesach,

Very beautiful and meaningful insights! The thought about the ground is especially pertinent, given that, as we mentioned, the issue of the snake and the threat of falling into his fallicies is very present here. That he is punished by crawling and that we bend this way surely means something about that tikkun.

Gut Shabbos!

RD

On Fri, Feb 10, 2012 at 4:23 AM, Paul <paul@carltonhandyman.com> wrote:

Rav Daniel
I have to tell you some things that were going through my mind during yesterday's shiur.

I was thinking about modim, how we bend from the waist, rather than bend the knees first. In context with your shiur yesterday, modim is a point of shemone esrei where we come to appreciate the land as being in a relationship with us. I was thinking that when we bend over the top half of our body (more spiritual half), it becomes parallel with the ground. Symbolically, this is a gesture of showing that we humble ourselves to the ground as we mimic it by becoming parallel. Curiously this also forms a mathematical 'equals' sign - the ground and our top half bent over.

Modim is also an interesting word in that it is almost a palindrome (spelt the same backwards) except for the yud and vav which form part of Gd's name. The juxtaposition of placing such a word here further emphasises our co-relationship that we have with the land.

One more thing. The gematria of modim is 100, but also contains the gematria of 90 (mem,vav,daled,mem). Two numbers which correspond to the ages of Avraham and Sarah when Yitzchak was born. The difference of yud between the two gematrias is obviously signficant, identifying the presence of Hashem. The appearance of Avraham-Sarah to Yitschak here at Modim i think is relevant (as i recall you saying) in that modim is about finally letting all our encumberances go (like at the akeida, or like giving birth at 90), nullifying ourself and accepting G-d, and the heritage he has laid out for us.

shabbat shalom
Pesach

--

Rav Daniel

 

רב דניאל

 

Tefillah - Retze - RDK

Megilla chapter 2 page 18a
Bakashot shemone esrei
Alignment
Sound, colour,
vibration of sphere
Understanding tefillot
Gd's prayer
Pasuk that expresses shma kolenu
David comes - tefilla comes
Messianic context of acharit hayamim
End of time
is tefilla
All requests have been fulfilled
Led a path of abundant blessing
Enlightened path
Happening while we're in that order
We're in Gd's tefilla
Accessing Gd's prayers into manifestation
Taken into inner chamber
Gd's deepest desire
Tefilla & nevua are related
Understanding & respect
It's Gd's prayer, not man's prayer
Intention & motivation of adding and asking for your own needs
Atypical of psukim
Carries the next stage
Bracha of retze
Gd's prayer & power as the source of mans power
Takes us back to the 1st time the BHMikdash was called a bayit
The stone of Yaakov of even shtiya
Gd's manifestation and creation
Arrived at the place of avodah (what?)
Where have we been until now
Rambam says tefilla is avodah (sefer hamitzvos)
Accomplishment of tefilla is avoda to Gd
Maharal says to be dedicated and devoted
A servant has nothing of his own
No possessions
Its the acquisition of the Master
Channeling of Gd's desire that we possess nothing of our own
Ownership
awareness of Gd is the source and is the end
In the end, everything is Gd's
Possessions, tefilla, is Gd's.
My readiness to give myself to you
There is nothing other than you
This is a korban
Ironically returned to netzach
The 'chiri' sound of no dressing, no spread - just a point
Exposed when a korban is burned
Down to the efer,dust
The concentrate of life
3rd cycle of netzach,hod&yesod
Each has 3 prakim,stages
From consciousness of abundance
Then context to Gds reliability and my value and worth
Entering to messianic conditioning
Now netzach (retze) no possessions
Giving up to take hold of life which temporal
Sacrifice the Gd, to expose to the point
A re-aligning of avodah
Giving myself up completely
The ritzui of ratzon
Open up the beit hatefillati "lekol ha'amim"
NOW we can return to bringing sacrifices with true understanding
Not korban like avodah zara
Korban is that we give everything over back to the original life source
The stone (shtiya) looks like a chiri - a dot, a point.
Leratzon - your will.
Avodah is your will
Modim is coming down
Maharal 'Gevurat Hashem' - brit beinhabetarim - bringing korbanot
Holding onto the land
Avodot of korbanot
Gd shows us that korbanot is unshakeable
Solidity to your reality of connection
You're still mine
You will never lose land
No matter how much you sin
Proof is the korbanot
You can get atonement
Your reality is unharmed
Korban is a connection of divine reality that atonement will never be lost
I can give everything up
Emphasises that it's only you that i have
Important, its the first time of mention of korbanot
Ability to be in the land
The land is your possession
But it is not yours
But we belong to Gd
And the land belongs to Gd
We exist together in a relationship
Land is a reflection of the solidity of our connection to Gd
Like when Avraham buys a plot for burial
The land actually owns you
Shmittah and Yovel is the same
It is not that we own, the land owns us
Kli ha'aretz
We purchase the right for the land to own us
Hamachazir shechinato letzion - A vessel for the relationship
The prime zvicha is toda
Korban toda
praying (korbanot) for restitution is not quite the correct understanding
Korban toda without animals might be possible
Moves us into Hod, hodaya.
Bow - modim
Primal tikkunim
You need to bow, or else your spine will become a snake in the grave
(Get up like a snake)
Reflection of Adam harishon being a failure and covering Gd's goodness
Power of giving over power to Gd at modim
Selfishness and ego is now being let go
Saddest moment is history
Denial of the good in giving him woman
I gave you tov, connection to experience in this life
You complained
Turned yourself into a victim of her perspective
Deepest kfiyes tovah of creation
The earth is associated
The earth is now cursed
A product of relationship and connection
Taking of kavod for myself
Denying the work of connection and relationship
An act of being alone
Bowing down is the understanding of the connection
I am in deep and full submission, hodaya for the gifts you have given me
It is not all mine
Acknowledgement
Adam had ingratitude for her
Victim of relationship
'oh are you' says Gd
Level of honour seeking
Taking that we only want to be on our own, is not right
Need to express gratitude
Ultimate sacrificial act
Its not the giving up, its another darga of gratitude and thanks
Bringing us back to Hod
Sim Shalom is in Yesod
'Ha tov shimcha'
My name is connection
You don't have to make a name for yourselves
Purified these elements
Now we're ready for sim shalom
Now Yesod with 'shalom'
Aharon the cohen brings people back to relationship
'yasem lecha shalom'
Bracha of the cohanim
Brings peace
Identify your essence beforehand
Hodaya is in the middle
Netzach and guf must come together
If its a begrudging giving up, then you've missed the point
My Gd i willingly give up everything to you - that is AVODA
Hodaya is rooted in that consciousness
Look at all the things i've been given by him
Netzach and hod play together, then there is tikun (fixing)
Live in peace with the one who will take it all away
Final bracha is the last bracha and acceptance of peace
Making way for the appropriate state of mind for bracha hacohen
Yesod has the full realisation in the malchut
Drawing everything into this bracha, chesed, tzedaka, etc
Now your receiving the bracha
Open yourself up and receive it
Gd is blessing you
There's no other bracha of Gd blessing us
He is the only one who can do this
Then you're done.
After this, then adding new or extra blessings is opening new channels, which might be wrong.
This last bracha carries his name
'vyasem lecha shalom' is Hashem bringing his shefa down to us and giving us peace in answer to our acknowledgment of bowing down to Him.

If he said Sorry, we would only have 'mizmor leyom hashabbat'
Bowing is different to rest of amidah
(equal sign with the ground)
Modim is a palindrome, equaliser
Birkat cohanim is a 20th bracha?

chasidut RDK

Son of avraham
See avraham
Spiritual phenomenon
Avraham stays within Yitzchak
Physical appearance depicts spiritual inheritance
Meditation of avraham - divine life, giving existence, presence
Unifying
Belief in hashem echad
Bechina echad
Echad krativ
Honour for vessels
Hold divine light
Feeds people with worldly life
Aligns with hkbh
Next stage, shift
To life itself
Essential quality
Life force is beyond vessels can contain
Upward movement to light
Left side is longing for existence
Right side is water flowing down
Left is fire going up
The teaching of yitzchak
Yk spiritual reality
Akeidah is spiritual legacy
Represents who yk is
Forgiveness of Bnei Israel
Our vessels cannot fully manifest GD
Forgive us for our faults
Always going to be chasser
A deviation from your will of life
Full realisation of your light
Yarei shamaim
From korbanot in siddur
humbling of our accomplishments
turned towards gd
At end of yk's life
Yzk should be celebratory of the kelim
Realisation of the kelim
for Yzk the kelim are barely there
Level of orientation
Mechila for end of time
Within creation
Different concept
How dare you harm his revelation
Yirat shamaim
Losing of value in the presence of Gd
How dare i violate his will
Intense consiousness
Careful zehirut
After ahava comes yira (rambam)
Who am i to be standing here
Do my best to not violate grandeur of Gd
Disembodiment
Moving to disolution of self
Amazing we did anything in 6000years
Avraham focussed on life force within
Yzk = laugh
A derisive side
Or sarah's laugh
Or expansive side
This is avraham, wonderous
Produces Yaakov and Esav
Wonderous is true Pele
Yzk - Keitz chai - end of life
Yzk is the end of the day - mincha
Yaakov is night
Mincha, no time to do the things i dreamt of.
Mincha is an act of acquiescence
Now turn yourself towards hkbh
Only one reality
Each Av has a different perspective of life
Come off the altar
Be in life
Not enough life in this world to do it all
Book - 'care of the soul'
Fragmentation
Various elements of who we are
It's not for us - there's only you
Yzk laughs and lets it go
Power of letting go
Yzk is most matured
Ripened over briya
Gives briya its continuity
Leads to identity
Respecting the infinity
Left side is kelim, division, gvura
As delineation becomes clearer
And becomes more painful
Realisation becomes more aware
My soul will never be all that
By seperating i can then arrive
Avraham says though we are all one.
Distance is less
Identity is less defined
Deeper yearning to lose identity and merge into the all
Impure level
Its not great enough
Greatness doesn't mean anything
Accept and live the truth
It's not going to be infinity
Millions of people are in adulation of this?
Intensified
Disharmony
True yearning is for expansiveness
R'Yochanan said, when He is great He is with all.
Mincha is a stance of giving up to Gd.
It's all yours Gd
Reaching a pinnacle
Yzk knows how to maintain life, by owning the truth of perspective
Let go
Pathos of modernity to lose that part of ourselves
Product of Aesovian diminution which leads to depression
You know what Gd, we stink, lousy, finished - not the answer.
Saviour can pull you out, but...
'That's true'
You're right
Part of being here
To accept that
Afterwards there are modalities to bring back
Appreciate our limitations
Katz di bechayay
rivkah - i despise my life
Gd explains to her, there are 2 sides, you have both
How can i live in that level and bring life
Rivkah you hold both
Recognise its Yzk's world
Our spiritual inheritance
Pushing people into unitary dogma
Judaism is much richer than a single line attitude

This is his yearning
Leave the kelim
Reach infinity
Gd is in his essence
Binah side of identity
Kelim not hide Gd
Yzk leaves the kelim
for soul to yearn for Gd
Become subsumed within
He is the source of all
Not dressed in manifestation
Binah is contemplation
Inductive thoughts of whats inside
What is the source
Deductive expression
Different directions
Chochma is wisdom
Envisioning and seeing
See's what born
Looking at essential quality in the statis presence
From there its downward, see what it is
Binah intellectual function to get to root
Avraham is focussed on power of things as they are
Essence of Kol olamot
Seeing divine in what they are
Binding essence with appearance
Wisdom is water
Gd being drawn down like water
Yzk is yearning for source
Binah is focus & realisation of where did it come from
Not in any context of being knowable
No end to transcendence
Completely beyond
Response to that awareness (emotive)
Hitpa'alut, ecstatic response
Both endlessness of Gd and end of life
Beyond the light in the world
Fire is yearning to jump away from wick which is holding it in place
Reverting physical to its energy source
Fire has no substance
Denial of substance
Undermines nature of substance
Denies existence
Keeps matter as an entity extant
But matter is always here
Greek understanding of the atom
Chanukah ended with Einstein
Burning bush is on fire
String theory is looking at the beard of arich
Right - Binah gvura hod
Remain embodied
Pachad Yzk
Trembling and fear of Gd
Deep psychology
Paralyses
Body is destroyed
Shaking is scared of Gd?
Losing your body
Leads to churban beithamikdash
Scared to die
Primal fears
Truth is you never had it
You don't have anything
Deep truth about the nature of what we are
Trying to hold onto life? Leads to paranoia, afraid, etc
Body shudders
This is NOT the awareness of Yzk.
You are nothing
Your body is aflame and shuddering
If you freak out about it, you will despair
Resting in your body becomes inappropriate - a derision of Gd
Hodaya, submission to truth
Healing is in acceptance
What are you holding onto?
Possessions?
Main element of binah is coming from the worlds.
Transcendence
The Avot and Yzk who belongs in ahavat olam
This worldy existence
Yzk actually manifests in the world
The way Gd is in this world
Myriad of life forms
Plethora of life
How many species
Species of life goes on and on
This is the manifestation of the infinity of Gd, paradox
In Kabbalah, when you say you're done, a new life form appears
A new star appears
Our perception shifts to a new adaptation
Like the sand of the seashore
You can't keep praising all, it is beyond, accept that.
Meditate on that.

Tefilla - Ga'al Israel RDK

Gemara Megila yud-zayin-bet
Yam
Yabasha
Horns of the wicked cut down
Horns of the tzadik
Bris
Mila
Cutting away externality
Beginning of the meaning
Essence
Gerim
Gerim and tzadikim
Path discovered
Whatever level
A way in
Become part
Vision
Crucial piece
Non exclusive
Upbringing and education
Anyone can join
Gerei tzedek
Keren is a horn and an essence - yesod
Perot is the surface
Foundations of what life is for
joining at the foundation point for geirim
Contact point is the essence
Love of God
One God
connectivity
Seeking to realise
Klal Gadol
Ikar Shabbos
Joining connectivity
People of love
Other things are secondary
Har Sinai
Kli for relationship
Reflected here
Essential quality
When exposed
Pathway to conversion
Seder l'parshiot
Limud
Zikna (aged) is inclusive
Wisdom irrespective of age
Interpenetration
Vision of keter
Expanse of unity
Return to life
Uncover the primal unity underlying all
Non hierarchical
Open to all to join
Open door
Tzedakah and mishpat
Buddha wanted to break up the caste system
Sensitivity
Smallness
Humility
Bombastic
Grandiose
Defiant
Challenging
Where do you arrive
Unfolding of brachot
Structure of tefilla
Tzadik becomes embodied
Earthly embodiment
A city
Malkitzedek - melech Shalem (Shem)
Tzadik dwells in Jerusalem
Malchut & Tzadik
Unification
Yesod only properly functions when it is embedded in the malchut
Tzadik needs to be in contact - relationship
Is not in divisiveness
Tzedek appropriate to a king whose dedication is tzedek.
Jerusalem's essence is where everything is connected
It's pinnacle is the place of Keruvim
Kiruv is relationship
Reflects also connection of Moshe and Aharon
God speaks between them.
Somewhere in between
Consciousness is relationship
2 passionate creatures - keruvim
It is connective power
Unity of love
Connection of love
Only with connectivity can there be real malchut
Tzadik is not a lone figure
Tzadik fully expressed when social
Yesod of malchut
They come together
Jerusalem is the only city of contact between yehuda and binyamin
Both bechina of yesod
Foundation of har habayit is the yesod - a border.
Binyamin and yosef is yesod
Yehuda is malchut
Tzadik participates in coronation by being part of briya.
Primal temptation for a tzadik to be seperate
Tzadik yesod olam (tzadik is a sexual organ in kabbalah)
Bracha of tzadikim is yesod
Bracha of jerusalem is Hod.
Jerusalem is malchut, but the feature of connectivity is ingathering.
Emphasizing the power of yesod to enter jerusalem
Enables penetration
Psychological ability in order to be meeting
Acceptance of submission in order to arrive is Hod
Gratitude is hodaya
Modeh ani
Awakening my individuality
(Not ani modeh)
single from the expanse
Jerusalem is the place
Tzadik does not get lost there
Keren of the tzadik is jerusalem
Ask for the peace of jerusalem
Those who love will be in peace
Sets out for the sake of his brothers
Josef sent to find their piece
Lema'an achai veray'ai
Manifesting peace by finding brothers
Hod is the fire, Yosef is the flame
An excited state
Yesod is the ahava of hod
It's not about me
Experienced from above
God raining down his goodness on me
Now grateful
necessary for hod to function
Need to be integrated together
Yesod is Shalom
Yosef seeks shalom
Tzadik eats the fruit of his deeds
Tikkun of yareach and shemesh to the keter
Now you're ready for the next level of tzadik
Now you're the level of connector
Jerusalem where everywhere will come to realise unity, shalom and creation.
Tzadik will see keter and feed the hod
Then moshiach arrives
After shalom
After they come back to jeruasalem
They seek God
Don't seek yourself
Setting up political entity
Asking for David hamelech
Shaul didn't do that
Don't be a body politik
Jerusalem has a level of non-hierarchy
Open system
Interpentration of sefirot and midot
Matzmiach keren yeshua
Netzach
Last time was birkat hashanim
netzach is growth and progeny
sustainable and long-living
Primal contact
Core of abundance
The eternal kernel
Not a sense of lack
Bracha about growing and growth
Moshiach is an outgrowth of
Particular emphasis of shemonei esrei
Yearning for shlemut
Perception of life as netzach
Moshiach comes into reality and arrives for a lack of self worth
Save the day
Someone to prostrate
Send me the ultimate
Insufficient personality
They want them now
A leader to attach yourself
Sense of value
Leadership
Meaning
I am his subject
Netzach is also in shelo asani aved
Saved from slavery
i am what i am
Ultimate experience of abundance
Outgrowth
leave the domineering behind
Subject and subjugation gone
Attempt to use
Needing to use is gone
Smallness removes value and worth
Tzadikim are small
shmuel hakatan
David hakatan
Smallness from being independent and possession and external
Small as a kernel
The point
Being indivisible
Something where everything grows from
The sounds is 'i' (as in 'it')
A nekuda
Non-dimensional
Seed from which other things grow
Result of the keter experience
Mevarech hashanim is asking for possessions
Abundance means nothing without touching netzach
Now we are talking about the place for growth
Can't be grabbed before the time
Moshiach is on right side of chochma
Annointed with oil from right side
Not oriented with possessiveness and possession
Knowing i have nothing
'i' is the ego 'i'
Can be a source for devolvement
Need netzach
Matzmiach keren yeshua
The come back and seek God
And find him
Arrive at David
Kingdom of David
After Shlomo who is fullness and shleimut
Chochmat Shlomo
Side of openness and involvement
starts with bat paro
ends with rehoboam
Classic example of incapacity
Let go some of the taxes
If you serve them now, they will serve you forever
Increase of taxes to beat people

Now that David is there we can begin to pray
Shomea tefilla
Turned everything on its head
greater and greater completeness
Now you're here
True tefilla
Crying out from a lack
All the lacks have been answered
God now hears
Answer not out of need
Answer from hearing
I'm standing right next to you
I'll hear you now
I'm close to you
Process of alignment of tefilla
Wholeness
Presence
I'm right in front of you
Bakashot
Shomea tefilla asking no more
There is no asking here
Nothing further to need
Here we are
Don't turn us away empty
Dveikut
Don't ask for anything personal
Simcha and joy and wholeness and fullness
Hakadosh Baruch Hu prays
Prayer is not outward directed
An expresion of deep desire
A profound impulse
Arouse his will
Becomes manifest
Very close
Unity between you and God
God speaking through your voice
You are here
On my mountain
Experiencing unity
The place of my prayer
Leads to malchut
A difference to regular malchut
Nothing of her own
No personal supplications
Darga of contact
Embodied light
Life lived in fulness
Asking for a channeling
Coming out of unification
Netzach-hod-yesod
A unification
Don't come from the ego needy
Beit tefilati prayers
Malchut ateret ba'ala
The lowest level recipient is the beginning of the next world
Higher than keter