BIO (2024)

BIO: Pesach Steinberg is a community Rabbi in Melbourne Australia and is married with five daughters and two sons-in-law. He is involved in the kashrut industry, is a prison chaplain, author & publisher, sits on industry boards for ethics in human research, has worked in Synagogue administration and has been the Rabbi of a Synagogue. He graduated from Mount Scopus College and Monash University and received semicha from HaRav Zalman Nechemiah Goldberg zt’l. Pesach is also the Australian Ambassador for Sar-El Israel, which places volunteers on IDF bases throughout Israel. (as at 1/1/24)

Monday, May 21, 2012

today's thoughts from pesach

I wanted to share with you a few thoughts that came up during our recent shiurim…
1.       Regarding morning shacharit starting from a time when you can notice the difference between tcheilet and white tzitzit, I noticed something curious at Maariv last motzei shabbat which I think is very relevant. Before the sky became absolutely dark, the ambient atmospheric light was in fact 'blue'. This led to an interesting phenomenon where, for example, the white shutters on the buildings across the road from the Bet Knesset were in fact a blue color at this twilight time. The same ambient atmospheric blue light would also hold true for a time just after dawn. Thus, my understanding for the mishna noting the difference between tcheilet and white is very important, not simply because it is light enough to now see the colors of the strings, but in fact during dawn there is a time when all the strings look all the same color! i.e. the white strings (like the white shutters) would actually look blue. This is important because the time for noticing a difference in color between the tcheilet string to white strings is actually a LATER time than if you were comparing, say, orange to white. Hypothetically, if you had an orange shamash on your tzitzit (instead of tcheilet) then you would notice the difference in colors earlier(!) because the white strings would look blue (from the ambient atmospheric blue light) and you would see the orange string as an orange string. Photographers actually refer to this twilight period as "blue hour". As you will note in this picture everything that is white appears as a tcheilet color, just like the white strings would on a tzitzit.
A further thought on this… for the past 150 years Jews have been trying to re-establish tcheilet back into our tzitzit. I have seen various colors of tcheilet from purple to light blue. But there is no doubt in my mind that it is possible (based on this mishna) to deduce the exact tone of blue that the tcheilet shamash string on your tzitzit should be, i.e. the same color as a white string at this 'blue hour'.
… I hope that is understandable.
2.       אם בחקתי תלכו
There is a word that perhaps we forgot to have a look at today? אם = ima = mother? perhaps this is significant in terms of the sphirot/midot and the ima that we have been referring to in previous discussions?
3.       Letters carved into the tablets. The letters were not just carved but they were also hollowed out, in order to let the light (fire?) through. The tablets were the worldly machine/filter/decoder that allowed the Gd's light to be channeled and seen.
4.       Written Torah Ink & Parchment came from living briyot as opposed to the stones which are inanimate.
Parchment is from cow hide and the ink is from gall nut juice & gum.
5.       The keterim on the Torah's letters symbolically represent the fire of Hashem that created the Torah.
6.       Tikun leil shavuot is the breaking of the Jew to be ready for chidush of receiving a new level of Torah. (Can't happen to angels, because they can only stand in 1 place)
7.       R'Akiva also died with the fire (like a keter) on his chest. R'akiva was getting the fire raked into his basar. His life ended as fire.

R'Aharon HaLevi - im bechukotai telechu

Enlivens the kli
Brings us up from the physical world
All the physical world's sphirot
Path of ahavat olam
Moshe brings ahava raba
Not by contemplation of physical
Not relationship between 2 bodies
It is just love
Not yearning
Ahava raba is love
Ahava raba is expansive love itself
No boundaries of love
Moshe's great gift is ahava raba
Reflects itself in access to Torah
It is the Torah of Ma - Shem ma
The expressed realisation
Im bechukotai teleichu
3 levels of full realisation
Chukotai, tishmeru, asitem
Torah has different dargas
1. Moshe brings down engraved in luchot
Words carved/engraved into stone
Torah of chochma ila'a - avot
2. Written torah is from midbar
Ink on parchment - 2 pieces
Seeking to bind wisdom with words
This is Torah of ze'er anpin
Bechukotai telechu is the movement of light
Mitzvotav tishmoru is the cold static means
The fire of the light of the luchot needed to explode/breakup in order to be expressed and disseminated
Hod is the fire in the moment of transition from potential to actual
Malachim are fully actualised always, they always stand
Malachim told Gd to hold still on Torah
Gd told Moshe to express how the Torah is useful only for humans
Will is only actualised when a challenge is presented to it
For Moshe to burst into fire is the sneh -for angels they are consumed.
Torah writing the world and its revelation.
Shavuot is the giving of the luchot

Essence of humanity is the ongoing transition from potential into actual, infinitely unfolding.

(Death is stasis)
Need to be ego-less, and not protecting your paradigms and personality.
Talmidei chachamim are always in a mode of chidush of Torah.
R'Akiva is an access to keter (atik & arich)
Keter is the pure light where potentiality is coming down to the letters.
Engraving of light
Tehiru is the keter
R'Akiva sees the ketarim
From ketarim is the hilchot olam
Moshe is flesh - beshegam hoo basar - the LETTERS
R'Akiva is fleshless, having his skin raked from him - the KETER
R'Akiva is shifting, pirte pratim, chidush

Shavuot is the burning fire
Not the same Torah as the rest of the year

Shavuot is for gerim
Beyond the boundaries
Through gerim comes the keter


Im (Em) bechukotai - ima ila'a
The carving in the tablets are to let the light through - tablets are the kli/machine/filter
The ink and parchment once came from living things.
The keterim on the letters are a representation of the fire of Gd coming into letters
Tikun leil shavuot is the breaking of the Jew to be ready for chidush of receiving a new level of Torah. (Can't happen to angels, because they can only stand in 1 place)
R'Akiva also died with the fire on his chest.
R'akiva was getting the fire raked into his basar.

Thursday, May 17, 2012

RDK Tefilla Maharal, perek zayin, netiv ha'avoda

First reading of 3 brachot of Kr'Sh
1st bracha, First notice light - Yotzer Or
More than physical light
Also enlightenment of malachim
Awakening of consciousness
2nd bracha - al olam ha'ze
2 torahs, origins in zohar
Mishle describes how there was torah before world - kodem nifalav
& Torah of response to world
Access to divine, e.g. Mitzvot
Explains how it cultivates a relationship to Gd
A master to whom you're answering
Torah participates with world
Torah gives world priority
Guide to navigate
1st torah is origin of world
World is torah in flesh
creates circumstances of history
Non contingent will
2nd is contingent will
Reality which forces itself upon us, as history unfolds
Allows for technological breakthroughs as we become conscious and aware and lays the path for the next stage of thought
Learning is greater so you can learn how to act/perform/do.
Teach people and or lived truths.
Some things cannot be transferred by words, but only can be done - e.g. Leading by example.
T'chiat hametim is going back into the beam and then being transported again from the beam into the new body.
Everyone lives in a conceptual framework in their particular lifetime.
The next manifestation has a different framework which you cannot live within
Choni HaMeAgel slept for 70 years and when he woke up he struggled to fit the update of life that was now prevailing
The neshama can only be great when it has embodiment and selfhood
The learning(Talmud) can only be connected in the Ma'ase.
The learning moves me into doing and action
The learning must be expressed in the flesh
Words are part of the equation which cannot be realised without embodiment and ma'ase
Torah is lived
Moshe is also flesh, but he is a reflection of what is being learnt, and flesh it out!
Someone talking is not enough yet, it has to be done.
The writing on the luchot is necessary so people can interpret in their own way, for generations and forever.
The aron always needs the rods attached to it - so people can handle it and carry it.
New generations and your new involvment via different gilgulim is necessary
Torah sh'bctav is living still today in new dynamism and vitality with every generation
Forever unfolding
Precedent is stupidity and is constantly getting re-interpreted for new era's. New paradigms.
Halacha is the way we walk in the world, or are the laws forever walking and updating and changing
Im bechukotai telechu - you will see the laws in different ways in different eras
The laws will become engraved and you will toil in the law until the ma'ase is all the Torah enriching life.
Torah sh'bktav is a once in lifetime creation that cannot be altered, added or reduced - but it can be interpreted for the era

Beam of light of creation
Physicality of light
Light is most primordial element of physicality of creation
Recognise transitional vehicle of Torah
Leads to Shma Yisrael
Beyond the Torah is the Ani of Gd
Ani is the creation of Gd becoming manifest
Malchut is Ani
Ani is selfhood of Gd
Ani is before torah, it is the identity
Torah is the medium through which ani will be experienced and given to the world.
This is the light, the Torah.

Malchut of Ein Sof (identification)
Alefcha, katva
Za'er Anpin (response of Torah)
ZA is our vehicle to connect to Gd, the way for revelation to come about

Identity behind everything that will spell things out and make it a manifest of Gd
(megilla esther shows entrapment of amalek which makes the world full of rules and precedent that is unchanging)
Rules always serves something, which gets caught up in the game.
David Hamelech breaks the rules and forgets his self-importance with his humility
What makes Gd one is that there is nothing else. Everything is a reflection of Gd. The personhood of the ein sof.
You are the Torah being reflected via the flesh. Na'aseh v'nishma. (opposite of Bechukotai)

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

No More Fear - Carlebach

http://www.breslev.co.il/articles/breslev/rebbe_nachmans_wisdom/no_more_fear.aspx?id=21962&language=english

When G-d took us out of Egypt, you know what was wrong? We were still afraid of Pharaoh. When we left Auschwitz, we were still afraid of the Nazis. This is engraved fear. The miracle at the Red Sea is that G-d took fear from us, for a moment we were free.

Fear paralyzes us. The less fear, the more free we are, the more we can grow.

Our Torah says that the lowest, simplest person in the world, when he crossed the Red Sea, had higher vision than Ezekiel the Prophet. We were ready for the highest. For one moment, all of Israel had the same vision as Moshe. Why don’t we have the same vision as Moshe all the time? It’s because of fear.

If I’m absolutely free inside, I’m not afraid of anything.

By the end of Pesach we reach the level of infinite Prophecy and infinite riches. The Egyptians brought all their gold and silver with them, and the ocean spat it out.

There’s high oneness and lower oneness. The high oneness is like on Rosh HaShanah, when I fall down before G-d. There is only G-d: I don’t exist. Low oneness is there’s you, and then there’s me.

Why does a seed have to disintegrate before it becomes something? What remains of the seed is the deepest depths, a vessel for everything. When we stood at the Red Sea, at that very moment we were in a state of the deepest disintegration. On the one side Egyptians, on another side the Sea, and on the third side, wild animals. At that moment we were at the deepest place of recognition, and it was the children who saw G-d first when they crossed the Red Sea. We were disintegrating, but obviously not yet enough. We were still afraid of Pharaoh, we were still too afraid to be prophets.

What’s the first sign that someone’s a slave? No self-confidence, fear.

Why isn’t Moshiach coming? We’re still a little afraid of it.

Reb Nachman says that you can’t taste the hidden light of the world unless you first get rid of fear, because fear paralyzes us mentally and physically. At the Red Sea we learned not to be afraid, to trust G-d in the deepest way.

We are so afraid of loving people. The only ones who aren’t afraid are our children. Seder night is the fixing of fear. How do we do it? We make children the center.

On the first day of Pesach a sin offering is brought to ask G-d to forgive us for not bringing Moshiach sooner. We might have, but we were afraid to.

At the crossing of the Red Sea, all of Israel went to mikva for the first time ever. It was just before Mount Sinai - our conversion - therefore we all went to the mikva.

The end of Pesach is the highest mikva in the world. Most people don’t keep Shabbos, don’t keep Yom Tov, because they’re afraid to. Even when they keep it, it’s not done on the level of Kriyas Yam Suf [crossing the Red Sea]. Only after we cross the Red Sea can we receive the gift of a Shabbos without limits, a Yom Tov without limits. Shabbos and Yom Tov are gifts from the inside, inside, inside of heaven.

The way to fight evil is by becoming infinitely holy.

When we get out of Egypt, Pharaoh is still there. There is still evil left in the world. If we know that there is still evil left in the world, how can we sing? But when we crossed over the Red Sea, there was no evil in our world, so now we could sing.

In order to sing you we be free. Okay. The slaves from Africa used to sing to tell you that no matter how much you tried to enslave them, they were still free. Singing comes from the world of freedom. When you sing, you are telling evil, “You don’t have dominion over me.”

In Judaism, the walking, the journey, is so important. Judaism becomes precious because of the long walk. The holiness of it is that it teaches you that you are always on the road. Teachers have to teach you the holiness of walking, and they have to walk with you. The Baal Shem Tov says that a teacher who doesn’t walk with you, doesn’t know your soul, and is not a real teacher.


Excerpt from “Rebbe Nachman Says”, The Teachings of Rabbi Nachman of Breslev as Taught by Rabbi Shlomo Carlebach z”tl. Rabbi Shlomo Carlebach’s books are available online at the Breslev Israel store.

meron day - Lag B'Omer

We tried to catch the bus to Meron, but at 2 separate bus stops there were hundreds of people waiting around and no buses. So I offered to drive and everyone paid 40 shek's each. worked out well.

Schedule – Lag B'Omer – Meron - Amirim

4.00pm-6.00pm Had special pre-lag b'omer shloof
8.00pm-12.00pm Lag B'Omer bonfires in Gan Sacher for Mayanot Shule and Sulam Yaakov Yeshiva
12.45am               left home in van to pickup friends
1.00am                 picked up friends, drove to Kikar Belz to catch bus to Meron
1.10am                 arrived at first bus stop for Meron – hundreds of people, no buses
1.20am                 arrived at second bus stop Meron – hundreds of people, no buses
1.30am                 decided to drive by ourselves to Meron (full car of 9 people)
3.30am                 Pit Stop on Kvish 6
4.30am                 Arrived in Meron 'area'
5.00am                 Parked behind Meron in SifSuf
5.15am                 Caught Shuttle to front gate of Meron
5.20am                 Arrived at front gate of Meron
5.30am                 Started Shacharit (amud hashachar) – outside the front of kever
5.45am                 Neitz
6.15am                 Finished shacharit
6.30am                 'Dived' into kever - bracha
6.45am                 'Swam' out of kever
7.00am                 Listened to Kriya in Bet Knesset beside Kever
7.15am                 Ate a little out the back beside the forest.
7.30am                 went into kever of Hillel HaZaken - bracha
7.45am                 danced a hora with bunch of chareidim
7.55am                 waited at front gate for friends
8.05am                 caught shuttle back to car park
8.15am                 arrived in car park at SifSuf
8.20am                 departed for Jerusalem
10.00am               pit stop on kvish 6
11.30am               arrived back in Jerusalem
12.00pm              went to bed (didn't sleep)
3.00pm                 got back in car with family and drove to Amirim (next to Meron)
10.30pm              Fell asleep after almost 30 hours…

Monday, May 14, 2012

RDK - Aharon HaLevi

New bechina, sha'ar slishi
Moshe Rabeinu
Ahava Raba
Shem Ban, Shem Ma
Aspect of Ima and Aba i'la'i
Power of M's shushavina d'malcha

All forms of spiritual expression find a place with Moshe R.
M has a special place with Bina.
Ima on left side, is into hod of ze'er anpin - expression of emotive, bringing things into realisation
Ima gives over conviction - something has to come from this
Her son is the modality through which her NEHI become expressed - netzach, ?, hod
Though yesod ima is short, (yesod aba extends downwards) does not extend into midot of Ze'er Anpin
Hod of ZA is impacted by Ima
Brings an acquiescence to Gd's infinity
To be modeh
Influx from above is modeh
Cause others to be modeh by being fully revealed and powerfully expressive
To be modeh to our talents, then that becomes powerful to others so that it spreads
People won't experience you fully because you haven't fully expressed yourself and admitted fully to your midot
Leads to obsequiousness
Tries to get someone to be modeh to him before he's even reached his own hod fulfillment
Hod is crucial to understand ourselves
When Bina extends downwards, the impact of the ein sof, it goes beyond and open to the infinity
The personal impact is to be modeh in the ze'er anpin
Binah does not take over and define midot, she only helps with being modeh
Aba's yesod is long, not in the intellection and differentiation
Aba dwells in ein sof
In expansive bitul, and perfectly present
Midot can be completely transformed, not intellectual.
Wisdom not thinking
Aba extends down through centre line of all midot into ZA
Ima extends down left into Hod
Ima is not prime identity
Aba spreads out into Hod and yesod, but not essential to it, except for expanding midot
Centre gets transformed into bitul
Aba produces a bliss which expands your midot because the ein sof is being integrated

Wise man is beyond abilities and comprehension, apprehension
Not really aligning himself, but listening and chupping it
Chacham echoes the teachings and has learned
He can't be creative, he just gets it
Modeh le chochma
Primary stance is not to align with the wisdom, but to be modeh and his students learn from that
But if student is bitul to chacham, then he becomes transformed by this relationship and understanding of the chacham.
Binah can only hold conceptualisation
They don't get it, and nothing for them to do in the contemplation.
This is binah i'la'a
Avot is in love with Hashem, ahavat olam - Gd is enlivening their kli.
But the kli and midot are separate
Ahava raba is expansive though and is beyond kelim
But contemplation needs to love
Bina i'la'a is infinte in which there is no other
Midah means measurable and finite.
Hod-hoda'a is a surrender, a stance
Contemplation is the disembodied aspect
My mindfulness and awareness of ein sof can be awakened
They're all then batel
Do they disappear to the ein sof? No, that's binah talking. Participant of consciousness.
Chochma is simply to see it. Impact from midot being enamoured/integrated - present to it. In solution with it. Dissolved.
Bina looks for solution
Chochma is the dissolution
Lacks distinction
Spiritual awakening
Value of both possibilites
Intellect ends, and chochma is involvement in presence without thinking.
Power of this is that midot are still there, but enhanced by bitul of chochma.

The makot of mitzrayim are a teaching - a transformation of consciousness.
It was a shift so we could go into desert and live with Mun and Clouds, etc.

Impact of hitbodedut in ahavat olam
Nothing to do but let go of self-hood
A new human being walking around
Different level of humanity, a new league - you can only be modeh of these people.
Seek to be modeh of your own path
Live in the presence of Moshe
Could only see his backside, not his face, needs a mask
Moshe's face changed when he asked to see Gd's face
The only gilui of Gd's malchut is in the hod of 'atik'.
People will just look in complete surrender and awe - hod she'be'atik
Binah knows it's beyond me.
Atik is misgaleh to binah
Ne'etak means separated from. This is how binah sees Gd.
Chochma has no transcendence to see this.
Beyond kelim.
M is using hitbonnenut, perfection of bina i'la'a.
M also exists in Aba, the midot is yesod aba.
M is in the attachment of Aba, and this is the source of his true anava to Gd.

Monday, May 7, 2012

RDK - Aharon HaLevi

Yaakov excited by physical reality, when he meets Rachel - ahavat olam, responsiveness
Movement inwards to intimacy
Accessible path
'Ban' = 52
Redundancy, replication - this is that
Appreciation of the child 'Ben' = child
The world is the child of Gd
Jews are first born of HKBH
Path of the fathers

Then introduced to Moshe
Ahava Raba
Not aroused by phycial presentation
Aroused by contact with essence
Kelim are not source of arousal
Love of one for another
Blissful stillness
Quiet of presence within divine
Deeply reflected in Moshe's stance in life in anava
Simple and boundless
Anachnu ma? We are what?
We are not a particular entity and phenomenon
We are absorbed in all
1 way is carrying content in words
Another way is seeing the words
Seeing the speaker
Jews touch this when they 'see' the words at Har Sinai
Ban is Bina is hearing and listening - not that way.
What is desire and intention behind those words
Words block the intention
Moshe lives in ahava raba
Moshe says this is not for me, the world of ma.

Aharon HaKohen is the escort of the queen
Moshe is the escort of the king
Moshe, brings king into avod of queen - divine to the world.
Moshe is netzach, right side
Aharon is the escort of the queen to the king - the world to its submersion in the divine
Aharon is Hod, left side

Aharon and Moshe are Ma - mahut nothing
Don't see sum of things
They're love is beyond understanding and wisdom
Derived from kelim, where the avot are
Supernal mother and father
Does not enter into ze'er anpin
z.a. is accessible format
za the driver to unfold and unpack
Za the contemplation is of avot and Gd
M&A are not bringing down vitality
Only seeing divine
Is no other in the divine
Delineation b'n body and vitality is not appropriate there
Perspective of man is built on consciousness of b'ground and perspective
Our brain 'subjectifies' everything
Israel is the forerunner of imaging
You never see what it is, only who it is
You can see patterns and give it identity
This is disappointingly NOT what is there
The translation of what is there
Electrical impulses are the real form
Moshe in ma sees what is
Ultimately you become anava
Ultimately access the inner, and leads to netzach, which is forever
Pale blue is the netzach, the forever
Naming is a function of 'ban' - subjectifying
Angels can't name items
Human brains give it pattern and appearance
Humans live a pattern out as identity
This is man's glory (not undoing)
Angels are pure force
Force which is potency which is unformed
Moshe is an ish elokim
Moshe is never named by his mother
Aharon was named 'nireh', an enabler of perception
Always seeing divine
Doesn't see space in between
Like an eddy in the flow
(as opposed to Korach who stood on his legs and was not part of the natural flow)
Gds appearance in yesh is no different to Gds appearance not in yesh
Moshe is Gds escort to house of queen
Queen is representative of people, the recipient
Moshe brings revelation of divine into nifalim - this world
Panim b'panim - inner to inner
Kelim don't have mahut, don't carry anything

All devarim in the world are Gd speaking to us
... Now we have to get that

Like a love letter. Its about the love and accessing her - not the letter
What stands behind all this
Coming into the world, not as other
Aharon is left, who turns upwards
Brings queen into kings chamber
Re-instates belovedness between 2 people
Reintegrate their relationship
It's not a lie
2 people don't want to be separate, really.
Zohar gives contradiction and says Moshe is supernal wisdom
... And also yesod aba
And bina is Moshe
And Moshe is bina
And Hod
But in truth they're all of a common intention
Moshe is abnegated before Gd, Ma.
Activity and contemplation in terms of seeing via bina ha'ila'a.
M Always looks upward towards his divine essence.
This is bina, but not bina of deriving Gd from the world
M sees Gds picture of the world, from Gds perspective
Revelation of chochma and bina reflect in Hod.
Moshe has hod, reflection of light glowing from him
M passes light, hod, onto Yehoshua
Malachim admit to the power of man when they see Moshe
Empowerment of hod, and moshe's ability to give it over
Hod above shamaim is ze'er anpin

Extent of anpin is into Hod
ZA is standing, man. Above is ima. Netzach extends downwards into midot
Where mind meets matter
Bina spreads down
3 legs extending down, segments,
Top is chochma, middle is chesed, lower is netzach
Side of hod, top is bina, middle gvura, hod - this is ima
Avot are in zeer anpin
Moshe is ima which is in hod
His face is glowing

If chochma and bina remained in their essence they would not come down at all
Experience acceptance
Knowing there is nothing but Gd
Your brain is structured so everything is translated into image
Moshe is the only non imaging prophet
You can only be modeh to it.
Hod is the source of prophecy
Experience of flow
Moshe brings that down
Experiencing hod is appreciating its influence and acquiescing to what it is
Hod is the end of Bina
Becoming inquisitive makes Bina disappear, you just need to nullify and accept

Yesod is the connection of Ima to the ein sof
Awareness of ein sof, there is no emotion to accompany that
Hod goes down to bina to accept there is nother than He
Chochma of Yesod of aba can connect downwards and connect with love, informed by the bitul submersion
Bina, looking towards, and aware of, stands in your way of emotional reality