Rav Aharon HaLevi

World of truth
Love and truth come together
Truth is not attached for gain and benefit
Thats what it is
Truth may not lead to love
You can attach to something you see as true
Attachment of love can come from seeing something as true
True love is something seen as absolutely true
Love is a dedication
Entirety of being
Sense of beloved
Depth of connection cannot be observed from outside
Almost impossible to see something as being true and not being connected
Truth resonates my own essence
Part of our psyche
Olam chesed is the beginning of the root to truth
Rambam at beg'g and end of sefer hamada - begins with truth and ends with
All beings have a desire to return
That is love
Love comes from authenticity and truth
Like Rav and Talmid
Relationships are built on truth
Yaakov as an ish emet is the first great lover, most romantic
Elemental relationship, truth and love
Love truth and truthfully love
Western idea is that love and truth are disconnected. One is emotional and one is intellectual.
However, the da'at is that they are both deeply related.

Gd does not award existence and then depart.
Gd creates reality and becomes continuously manifested.
World was not there before
Reality is a creation of the divine
Creating worlds are not a separate entity of Gd
Yaakov is left levado - alone. Like Gd at the end of time.
Lavud means attached, fused
Delineation of images of people are a concept that is unreal
But that is our existence
That is our struggle to cope in this world with all the delineation
Love depends on delineation
Love is not unity
Love is yearning to be together
For 2 products of Hashem and Hashem to become close
Love is bina
Kudsha Brichu Shchinte - Gd is the power that holds together and is the existence of all delineates objects
Shchinte is His spreading out into the world
To give life and entity
To give hierarchical levels
Shchinte is Elohim and Adonai (adon is socket)
Din is the giving of appropriation and allocation to the earned object
Elohim is the distinction and oneness
Elohim aherim is giving separateness and removing relationship from the divine, the ultimate distortion
Derived out of loneliness
Everything becomes estranged
No access to emet
Prophets say it is lies and false
People end up bowing down to their own fear
Comes from losing relation to the infinite
Knowing Gd and his greatness comes from knowing it yourself.
A revelation of atzeilut
Sitra achara is an alternative reality
Commitment to rebellion
Amalek is this image and committed to its own self destruction
Amalek shows that its possible to attack the real reality and show everyone that you can attack Gd's will and presence
Leads to chaos, entropy and the world of lies.
There is only Me. The malchut
Gd even is on the sitra achra
Keeping it all alive
The plagues in mitzrayim are about Pharoah's discovery of the truth of Gd
Kant says that conscience is a discovery of Gd
Once conscience is discovered, then it becomes impossible to repress another
Recognise that Gd is the indwelling Gd
The Master of all
Once discovered, then you become dedicated.
We all have a passion for truth.
This is back at Avraham who was the first to recognise Gd as Adon(-ai).

Chabura

Tonight i'm feeling a bit hampered because i'm slightly tired. I may not be completely here and giving my full attention.

I've been feeling a little useless in the group and wondering whether i'm learning because i don't necessarily have a gauge. My oy gauge is that i don't tend to input as much as everyone else. Is that because of my nature or lack of experience. I do care.

I would like to help people more. I would like to give my advice. I don't want to attack personalities, but sometimes feel a strong urge to scream about my frustrations or because i want to lash out at a situation that i really really really want to help with, but have to bite my tongue and approach from what i see as a less constructive perspective. Thank Gd my patience wins. I think...

I'm a little tired and perhaps don't feel like being here tonight honestly. I'm a little mixed up.

I'm feeling small internal struggles in the beit midrash watching people blow in and out (no disrespect) and feeling a strong sense of being an anchor, which i didn't expect i would ever be.

I also hate Matthew's hair color.

purim - ki tisa - adaloyada

Hi Everyone! Happy Purim! Good Shabbos!

"ADA LO YADA"
What does that mean?
"Until you don't know".
This phrase is normally used on Purim to mean that we drink until we don't
know.

What don't we know?
We don't know the difference between Mordechai and Haman.

So we get drunk enough to not realise the difference between Mordechai and
Haman.
What does that mean?

So there are many events in the Torah where a seemingly bad situation is
described. For example, after the destruction of Sodom and Gomorrah, Lot
flees with his daughters into a cave. Abandoned and all alone, the daughters
believe that they are now the only people left on the planet. In order to
produce babies, the girls feel that their only course of action is to commit
a sin whereby they produce children from their father. That looks pretty bad
- right?

Do you know what came out of this seemingly un-holy union? King David.
Unbelievable, right? How? One of the girls produced a boy by the name of
Moab. Ruth was from the people of Moab (she converted to marry Boaz). Ruth
was the great-grandmother of King David. And we know that the lineage of
King David will bring forth Moshiach. Unbelievable.

Another example is the sin of the Golden Calf in Parashah Ki Tisa. I'm not
on a level yet where I can tell you the goodness that came from such a
despicable act. But this is a perfect example of how you can easily fall
into the trap of believing that a seemingly bad event that happens in the
Torah must obviously and surely have bad outcomes for the Jewish people. But
does it?

I'll take this point to an extreme. The Holocaust was terrible. Did you know
that written into the declaration of independence of the State of Israel
there is a specific point made of the establishment of the state as a direct
result of the Holocaust. The Holocaust was terrible. But according to the
declaration, would we have had the State without the Holocaust? It's
obviously hypothetical, but that's what is written there.

So we get so drunk on Purim that we look at good Mordechai and evil Haman
and we don't know the difference. I was walking with my family down Rehov
Yafo toward the old city a few days ago (on the 14th of Adar). I stopped.
Mamash, I just stopped. I turned to my family and said, Do you realise we
would not be standing here today if it wasn't for the events of Purim!

Do you realise what we don't know on Purim? We don't know how much all the
events of this world, and all the people of this world, good and bad, are
all connected to Gd.

On Purim we realise that everything is connected to Gd.

May we carry that idea forward every day of our lives.

Tefilla - RDK

Review:
3 primary meditations
Drash
Zohar
Ve ani berov chasdecha
2 types of love
Ahavat olam
Yehud of kudsha shchinte
Cosmic reflection
Whats in each of
Manifest reality and expression
Primary essence
Unity b/w more essential reality
Yichud is the undertaking in life
One self, one being, one reality
Prayer is expression of presence and essence
Yichud is the focus
Avraham Yitzchak and Yaakov covered
Then explication of 3 tefilot and their relationship to avot

Tefillot are aligned with avot or korbanot
2 aspects of tefillot
One attachment to source
Another to readiness to give all up
2 modalities
Everything Gd takes me thru is a temporary sojourn
End of ultimate truth
Avot are first 3 brachot of shevach
Giving over to him
Standing here
Modality of expression
Rich variation of touching each tefilla
Tofel is to connect
Tafil is taking strands and intertwining
Yechud HaIla - alignment vessels
Yechuf HaTata - speaks thru it
Perfect oneness
Avot are the merkava - yechud haIla
David Hamelech - yechud hatata (children)
Yaakov responds baruch shem kevod to children
Reality is the divine expression
Essential personality should reflect our characteristics-talents
Integrate with surroundings
We are not separate from our environment
KiTisa is about the yichud and malchut of tiferet
Beauty and divine expression of the malchut-mishkan
The reality of my personhood made by virtue of relationship
Aharon loves you, and you sense love
But the relationship is 2 separate individuals.
Reality of personhood as we mature and go through stages.
Differentiation is just a stage
One entity is there. I am you. You are me.
Couples look like each other.
Darga of tomati -
Anochi is a different sense of reality
Keter includes us by unification
Identity and reality are not separate
This is what was supposed to happen in KiTisa.
But they became self involved, thru avoda zara.
Intellectual contemplation and wholeness of Gd
Gd's coming to be known
Truly
Sharing becomes Yira
Noda is knowing, awareness
Shoshanat Yakov, a flower thats unfolding and blooming
Gd's presence should become known through manifest and 'reality'
Moshe's expresses a lack of bringing shechinah to malchut when he hits rock.
Esther also does not want to enter King's chamber.
But then she enters and the verse only talks about Melech, not Achashverosh.
Esther becomes Shchinte
Moshe is Kudsha Brichu
In the essence there is no change
Essence is no differentiation
Equal presence
Letters are particular parts of expression
But letters unify into one name - one essence
Hay Vav Hey are main letters
Yud is always happening
The present is always new
The present is always being made now
Time not being experienced
Continuation of something that came before
Truth is reality of worlds we live in are not coming from a process
It just is
Yud is the perfect presence
Ye Ha Ve would make it wrong because Gd is only in the present. The yud changes grammar to future.
Ha Ve is meeting Gd now.
All of reality did not exist before because to say that would mean pre-existence
The ayin is the possibility of thinking a particular thought
The ayin is the source
Everything is coming out of that
The truth is that the ayin of the source of thought, not the thought itself
Yesh is not what we know now
In the next moment it is not there
Yesh is not something material that is not here from one moment to the next
Every moment is completely new
Reality is completely new
Awareness when it looks at the thought, and questions it, it is wrong.
Awareness needs to accept the new
The only way to touch Yesh is with love
Lehanchil ohavey yesh - we need to experience, e.g. Love, motherhood, etc
Moshe hitting the rock is a reflection of derision of reality
There needs to be acceptance of reality at that moment.
Ein Sof is not potentiality

Ultimate reality is the complete Yesh.

Re:

Short Thought - Parasha Vayakel-Pekudei

These two parshiot are full of the accounting of the building of the mishkan. Bnei Yisrael immediately contributed to excess and Bezalel and Oholiav performed their work dutifully as befitting their creative talents. All of the work culminated finally in Moshe, Aharon and his sons coming to do their holy service in the mishkan.
There are 92 verses in Parasha Pekudei the gematria of which is the same as the word אצא = "I will fulfill". G-d told the nation of Israel what to do in order to build the mishkan. They did that, and then they put it to use. Then was no delay and no questions. Everybody just got on with the job and fulfilled G-d's instructions. In the journey of our lives, each one of us should also strive to say "אצא" in response to what G-d's wants of us.

tekhelet

http://www.tekhelet.com/diagrams/RadzynDetailInstruction.pdf

 

 

Chasidut - RDK - R'Aharon HaLevi

Gd is the great healer
Holds together 2 opposites
Power that binds all parts of our body in 1 unification
The fulcrum of creation
Beit hamikdash
Malchut is the line down the centre
Holds the 2 sides together
Manifestation and creation
Chazi hamalkut went down between the 2 kruvim
Went down into the creation point in the rock
Empowerment that holds together achar and echad
This is Yaakov, can experience the divine through individuation and unification
Rests his head on the stone and dreams of the unification
Rests on the access point and axis point
He rests at Luz, the bone in the body (base point of the spine), from where tchiat hametim will come from
Sacrifices himself for multiplicity
Holds his children all together - oneness
Avraham and Yitschak were only able to 'hold' one son - different oneness
Realisation of the tifferet, the mikdash becomes invested with personality - Aharon
He is the great lover of all creatures
Power is introduced with the Menorah
If You created light, why do we need to give you light?
Because you love the work of your creations
The mikdash is a place of love
Achashverosh dresses in Aharon's clothes and degrades love
Haman wants to destroy creation
Kilalat Elohim Talui - hang His image
Don't leave a body hanging overnight
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Response of Norah
When Yaakov wakes up from the dream
First time the word appears
Leaping flames from Yaakov
Fluidity of creation
Distance and separation
Fire from water (baytzah)
Chesed is the endearment of existence
Chesed is the embodiment of gvurah
Chesed and existence requires personal reality and longing to reunite
Yaakov is the disparate elements
But it is one will that all is suffused within
One integrating power
Reuta DeLiba is Yaakov
There is a movement,tendency,trajectory to it
This is how Avraham understads Gd
'Someone' is spinning this rock/galgal
Will in its all inclusive state is Yaakov
Yaakov being the centre, he was able to touch wellsprings that brought him back to atzeilut and extends his life
There is a root that can be accessed and re-awakened
In Will are all the midot, the particular expressions, and some remain dormant or latent
The shoresh always gives you access
You will re-enliven
Yitschak is the longing for connection
In a primary identity, it is still never exclusive.
There is always something to share
All of creation has a holographic illusion to it
Unite him via the world - Avrahams power
To know the unitary point of oneness
Longing desire like a fire leaping
Bow myself down and seek the loss
Give it all up just to be in the source
If you saw things as they are - objectify - you will never have longing
If you see the power of expressions, then you desire to enter and bow before the King
He'll never look behind the curtain
Yitschak is born from that
Yitschak is the imminence
Yaakov is the ascendance
Yaakov's bitul comes from touching the divine essence
Yaakov knows that
He knows that Gd is infinite
Now its all the same
The king is here is as he is there
Even in this pile of rocks is the essence of Gd
The Will is in all things
Reuta DeLiba

Tefillah - Magen Avraham - RDK

We 'take' trumah
We don't give trumah
If you believe you are only giving trumah then you are just building for yourself - this is avoda zara.
You 'take' because it already belongs to Gd.
It's a commandment.
This is his world
We are his funnel
We are his channel

1st bracha is Avraham - Magen Avraham
Thank you for protecting me

2nd bracha is Yitschak
T'chiat hametim

3rd bracha of sh'e is about yaakov
"Ha'El HaKadosh" is part of Yisra-El.
Yaakov is the only one that Gd calls 'El'.
He is the only one that cares for possessions and sees them as holy, not just as material.

These 3 together form the merkava-chariot for us to channel our tefilla. They create the foundation.